My Cancer Diagnosis was a Blessing!
By: Lisa Ferri
I remember the day when I told my Pastor that I had breast cancer. He prayed with me and then he said “this is going to be part of your testimony.” I thought to myself, he is crazy! How is having cancer going to be a testimony?
It was August of 2014, I was driving home from work when I heard God telling me to be still. I was driving so I was a little confused. I was about five minutes away from home. Once I got home, I told my family I just needed to be alone and I sat in my sunroom.
Let me tell you a little bit about myself. I was the type of person who always had about 10 things going on, my mind was always racing because I had my hands in so many different projects. I would actually lose sleep at nights because I would be thinking of all the things I had to do the next day. It seemed that I could never quiet my mind, I was always thinking of something.
So that August day when I was driving with the windows open, music playing and my mind most likely thinking about what to do when I get home and I heard God say BE STILL. It really got my attention. I had never really heard God talk to me. I mean I would feel like God was saying “oh don’t do that” or things like that, but this was different. I felt something in my spirit.
While I was sitting in my sunroom trying to be still, of course my mind would start to wander on other things and God would say BE STILL. I sat there for about an hour and God just kept telling me to BE STILL whenever my mind would wander. He did this several times over the next few weeks. The more he told me to be still, the easier it got to quiet my mind. Once I was able to quiet my mind, to his satisfaction I guess, he then started telling me to let things go. Again, I wasn’t quite sure what he wanted. So I would sit and BE STILL and he would reveal to me that I had too much going on in my life that I needed to make life simpler. I did let some things go and tried to make my life a little easier.
Each year in September, I get my mammogram done as a birthday gift to myself, weird I know. Well the September of 2014 was different, I was not in state for my birthday I went to Colorado with two of my sisters. So I didn’t get my mammogram done for my birthday. It wasn’t until October that I realized hey, you didn’t get your mammogram done yet. So I booked the appointment and had it done. Like every other year I was like ok that is done. Well not so quick, this year was different. I got a call from the office that they want to do an ultrasound. Sure, ok I had to that once before it’s not a big deal. I went for the ultrasound and they said they see something that they would like to biopsy. They book the appointment for the biopsy later that week. I go to the appointment and I lose it. I am so scared that I do not want to go through with the biopsy. The technician tries to calm me down, not working. THIS IS WHERE GOD COMES IN. I am sitting in the room freaking out, my mind is racing and what does God say to me? BE STILL AND KNOW THAT I AM GOD. I heard Him loud and clear. You see he started training me back in August. God already knew that I was going to be diagnosed with cancer. He knew I couldn’t handle this on my own and what my mind would do. As soon as I heard him say BE STILL, my mind cleared and I calmed down.
1 Peter 5:7casting all your cares upon Him, for He cares for you.
Philippians 4:6-7Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving, let your request be made known to God; and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.
I said to God, I cannot do this so I give it to you. I was at such peace while they were performing the biopsy, I could have fallen asleep. I didn’t feel anything and I was not anxious anymore. I also felt this peace when I had the two surgeries to remove the tumor.
My story doesn’t end there. I had to go for radiation everyday Monday through Friday for seven weeks. During the course of my treatments, I was at peace because I knew God had this. I was in His hands. While sitting in the waiting room each morning, waiting for my treatment I would read the bible on my phone. I guess as I was sitting there reading, I was smiling. My doctor walked by one morning and saw me and said “oh I love seeing you in the waiting room because you are always smiling and it makes my day that much easier.” That is the light of Christ shining through us. Here I am waiting for radiation to kill my cancer and the doctor is encouraged by seeing me! You see that is how our God works. He uses us to help others; the simple smile that was on my face because of Him. He knows our beginning from our end. He knows what we need and when we need it, you just need to be listening to His voice. I know that I would not have been able to go through this process without God by my side. I am grateful and blessed that he took the time that August of 2014 to teach me to quiet my mind and listen to him.
You see being diagnosed with cancer, has brought me closer to God. I knew God before but I was doing things MY way. I was always busy and trying to help with different things and doing my “good deeds” but I wasn’t giving God the time he deserved. Being the loving God that He is, He invested the time in me to train me to trust in Him. Take the time to hear the still small voice! I am forever grateful for that August day when God spoke to me.